My motto in life, is being out to the test.
~ Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass ... It's about learning to dance in the rain ~
~ Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass ... It's about learning to dance in the rain ~
"One of the Happier Moments - Hubby and Izzy"
The last several weeks .... months.... have been a balancing act to say the least. my future hopes and dreams all came crashing down on June 2, when my best friend, lover, and husband of 32+ yrs, lost his desire to cope with the pain from past cancers, advancing fibromialgia, being over-medicated to numb the pain, the daily struggle of a very negative work environment, and loss of strength to do simple things; and decided his own fate. My heart has been broken, not by my husband , but by the situation. Only the prayers and kind support of friends, neighbors, and relatives have enabled me to carry on.
Life is not always pretty..... But the choices we make are ours alone. I choose to remember the love between us and the wonderful times we had, especially the last 2 weeks together. We have been blessed to have experienced so much. With his passing, I now have choices to make.....
Will I keep my desire to dance, in spite of the storms? Will I strive to push on? seeing where my life will lead me? what paths I will go down? pursuing my hearts desire to become the best painter I can be? I believe I must, for the desire of "life" is still within me. I must make myself start.... and leave the results to my Lord and Savior.
Becky,
ReplyDeleteI have been reading some of your blogs. You really should write a book about your experiences. You are such a strong Christian woman, and I am so proud to call you my friend. I cannot imagine being in your position. I'm not sure I could be that strong. I am so encouraged to see you leaning so heavily on the Lord, and can only hope I would do the same thing. Just know that you are loved and prayed for.
Kathy